It’s been so long since I’ve written anything here. I’ve wanted to so badly. But, after Easter I just couldn’t. I was running on empty.
Since the beginning of the year, there have been so many wonderful things going on that required intense focus and preparation- studying, speaking, singing…..all on top of every day living…family, work, house, etc My goal was to keep all this in balance.
When Easter finally came, I had finished most of my engagements and was able to breathe a little satisfied sigh of relief. Now I could get some blogging and newsletter writing accomplished, you know…..social networking and such. After so many wonderful experiences from the spring, I wanted to capitalize on it.
But I couldn’t. Could. Not. I was empty.
I really, really wanted to, but the thought of even attempting to peck out my ideas in any kind of coherence was too overwhelming to bear.
See, I had been giving and pouring myself out in all these ministry endeavors. In fact, in two different situations, I felt I was giving birth (in a spiritual sense) to an event and pouring myself out like pouring water from a pitcher. I finally came to the point that I had poured out all that God had filled in me. To try to write or give anymore from a place of emptiness would have fallen flat.
And, don’t forget, I still had regular life to continue. Laundry and dishes DO NOT take a break. The end of the school year is always a busy time too. At the end of the day, I surrendered to the couch along side my cozy husband for some tv.
I know that before I can pour myself out like that again I must refill and recharge. I must spend time in prayer and worship in God’s presence in order to be a in a place of overflowing ministry to others. I must rest. Sometimes that means just taking care of life’s essentials and putting other things on hold for a bit.
More time has passed than I anticipated. I wish I could recharge those batteries quicker so I can get back to my to-do list. But it’s ok. Taking the time to recharge is always worth it. I would so much rather let Him fill me and let Him flow out of me than to fabricate something out of emptiness.
I’m sure its the same way for you. Your to-do list probably looks a lot different from mine, yet probably looks a lot the same too. One thing is for sure the same- We cannot do all we need to do when we are running on empty. We must allow God to fill us to overflowing.
Ephesians 3:16 says- I pray that from his glorious, unlimited resources he will empower you with inner strength through his Spirit.
Take the time to let Him fill you. Don’t be running on empty! Take the time to feed your soul!
~Amy
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